A Glimpse of Me

I guess I am. This morning, I went to pick my boy up from school. My girl didn’t go to school today.She was sleeping deeply this morning I hated to wake her up. So when I picked my boy up from school, I took her with me. When one of the teachers saw her, she was talking to her and asking her why she wasn’t in school today. I was already holding my boy that time, but I was also talking to the teacher.

Suddenly, there was a screeched I heard. When I turned to my left, it was a Vios car driven by a Chinese lady. She was gesturing something and I thought she was scolding me for something… like not being careful. Without thinking, I made a grimace and told her I saw the car coming. She rolled down the window and was pointing her fingers at me. I got confused. She was saying something, not smiling. So I told her again, in a firm voice: Yes, I saw you coming!!! By then the teachers were already wondering what was happening. I was already in a defensive mode. I knew I wasn’t dressed properly (only in shirt and shorts). In my mind, probably that lady was thinking I was one of those maids who’s not being careful with the kids.

After a minute, she said No, No. Are you from Sonshine playgroup? Then only I recognized her face. She was one of the mothers I used to talk to when I used to go with my kids for a playgroup. So I told the teachers not to worry because I knew the lady. She drove to the side on the other side of the road. I ran to her and we both apologized for the miscommunication.

Yes, I believe I’m being paranoid. When taking care of my kids are being questioned nowadays (as I’ve been getting that a lot), I become very defensive. They all can question my character and personality and I wouldn’t give a thing, but not with the kids. I would definitely speak up. And when I speak up, I really do speak up… which I did, a few times already.

I don’t know if there’s such a thing. But yes, I’m having a post-holiday blues. So blue even my long-deceased friend I am missing. I heared our song this morning and it made me even bluer. We started becoming friends when we sat next to each other in Probability and Statistics subject when we were in college. It was a summer engineering class and not medical assistant training school, by the way. We were both in our third year and we got the same score on our first quiz. That’s how we started talking to each other. We became really close.

We graduated 2 years later and went our separate ways. He worked in a different office, at NIA (National Irrigation System) Regional Office. That time, when we just graduated, Caraga Region was newly formed so they were hiring a lot of fresh graduates. My batch my one of the lucky batches to get a job in a government regional offices. I was hired to work in DPWH (Department of Public Works and Highways). We all got different jobs but the same work scope.

Well, in spite of different locations, we still managed to meet from time to time. We would always go for a night swimming. I realized that only Filipinos do night swimming coz when we introduced it to our foreign friends they were surprised we did that.

Anyways, Joseph was the closest guy friend I ever had. We were on the same wave length. But he passed away when I was in Thailand. Sometimes, I take responsibility over his death. Not that I killed him. I think I gave him less hope. No hope from me, if that was the right way to say it. I shared with him the true Hope though. But he wouldn’t listen. Of course, I couldn’t tell you the details of the hope I deprived him of. I respected him so much I promised not to spill out his problems even after his death.

I miss him so much.

Our song was played this morning.

Missed him even more.

Dear Joseph, wherever you are, you are badly missed.

In my previous post, I blogged about the effectivity of diet pills because I wasn’t sure if it really work and can actually help people lose weight. While I was online, though, I saw that a lot of people make a review for those diet pills. I sure read the liporexall review. It worked well for a lot of people. But I’m still not sure whether I wanna see it for myself.

It helps a lot when you ask around first before taking that step. It’s good to learn from our own experience. It is a good teacher. But it’s always better to learn from other people’s experience. Saves us a lot of trouble.