A Glimpse of Me

Paranoid?

May 14, 2009

I guess I am. This morning, I went to pick my boy up from school. My girl didn’t go to school today.She was sleeping deeply this morning I hated to wake her up. So when I picked my boy up from school, I took her with me. When one of the teachers saw her, she was talking to her and asking her why she wasn’t in school today. I was already holding my boy that time, but I was also talking to the teacher.

Suddenly, there was a screeched I heard. When I turned to my left, it was a Vios car driven by a Chinese lady. She was gesturing something and I thought she was scolding me for something… like not being careful. Without thinking, I made a grimace and told her I saw the car coming. She rolled down the window and was pointing her fingers at me. I got confused. She was saying something, not smiling. So I told her again, in a firm voice: Yes, I saw you coming!!! By then the teachers were already wondering what was happening. I was already in a defensive mode. I knew I wasn’t dressed properly (only in shirt and shorts). In my mind, probably that lady was thinking I was one of those maids who’s not being careful with the kids.

After a minute, she said No, No. Are you from Sonshine playgroup? Then only I recognized her face. She was one of the mothers I used to talk to when I used to go with my kids for a playgroup. So I told the teachers not to worry because I knew the lady. She drove to the side on the other side of the road. I ran to her and we both apologized for the miscommunication.

Yes, I believe I’m being paranoid. When taking care of my kids are being questioned nowadays (as I’ve been getting that a lot), I become very defensive. They all can question my character and personality and I wouldn’t give a thing, but not with the kids. I would definitely speak up. And when I speak up, I really do speak up… which I did, a few times already.

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